I am Rachel, and welcome to my thoughts, feelings and more. I’m going to ponder, vent, process, and share what happens in my head with all of you. Hang on tight cause this mind is wired a little different.
First off, I have taken every grammar and punctuation class, and it still does not stick. So, I am going to write the way I know how to. If it frustrates you that’s a you problem not mine. Mental health has become the main focus of my Life FINALLY! I hit burnout, a mental break and almost my life in January 2025. I have misunderstood and lacked the ability to fully process my feelings and emotions my whole life. I have struggled with suicidal ideation from the age of 16. When I became a ‘woman” it also came with suicidal ideation and PMDD. I was the kid that talked to much and was always on the move. I masked, and have lived with depression, anxiety, lack of self-worth and not knowing what my purpose was for as long as I can remember. I am the last person to ask for help, but the first person to help. I feel like a burden, when I vent people seem to only hear what they want and place judgements on me. I began to stay silent. I have lost what I thought were forever friends, jobs and family throughout my life, through them walking away and never looking back, or through suicide. I am on a journey of discovering myself. I lack memory, confidence, understanding of self, but I have some great qualities too. I want those to be what I bring to the table first. To believe and become this version of me. So please come along with me. Add your insights, resources, thoughts and feelings. This is my safe space that I’m sharing with you. This is a safe space for you too.
YOU MATTER/ TOMORROW NEEDS YOU/ YOU ARE ENOUGH